Hi My lovely viewers,
From past few days, I was so much in conflict with my mind and my inner thoughts. I wasn't able to understand my own thoughts and the endless sadness just because of one phone call of my dad. I really didn't know why I was so worried and why my dad words made me feel so insecure and filled me with worry. I had a talk with my friends, battled with my inner thoughts but ultimately came up with one solution that there was no use of getting worried with these useless thoughts and inner mind battle.
I am a 26 year old woman, with the desire of doing something better in my life. With a vision of creating and fulfilling my dreams. When conflicts arises in our life so we get so worried and starts escaping from it in spite of knowing that ups and downs are the part of life and we cannot escape from those but can develop and ability to fight with those inner useless thoughts, mind conflicts and can concentrate on ourselves with a positive thoughts, visions, can fight for ourselves and fulfill our dreams. That's exactly I also wanna do with my life despite of all these ups and downs.
My dad called me four days before, stated that he is gonna find me a groom and I have to be fine with that and that was all the reason of my inner conflicts. I cried many a times thinking that how will I concentrate on myself, How I am gonna work for my goals, where I will find peace for my mind. How I am gonna survive these inner conflicts of thoughts which were continuously running in my mind. I talked to my friends, some of them gave me their suggestion, some told me to keep calm and concentrate on my goals, told me to talk to my father about this that I am still not ready. I liked some suggestions but still I wasn't satisfied with those suggestions. I was continuously searching some peace of mind but couldn't find at all.
The last help I tried taking of some encouraging videos on social medias, came up with some good monk wisdom channel. I tried reading books to come up with clear idea that why these thoughts were continuously bothering me. I started doing meditation again, thought of changing my as usual daily routine. Somehow all these things helped me and calmed my mind and brought back my inner peace.
We all know that if there is no freedom and inner peace in the mind then it becomes really difficult for us to continue our peaceful life and concentrate on ourselves.
From childhood, I have believed or I may say that my desire for finding someone who will understand me, walks with me, be with me forever has been continued and still going on. There are lots of reasons, why marriage bothers me although it should not but still makes me worried about myself.
It is quite hard to put everything in the words but still I tried. There are lots of things which I wanted to share with you guys but I guess this is not the right time. When time will come, I might share.
I have always been afraid of getting bounded and not having full freedom. Haven't you ever thought the same or came across with your inner conflicts of thoughts? Please let me know in the comments. I also wanna hear your thoughts and words.
Somehow, I came up with the thoughts that let my destiny decide but I will not stop working on myself and I will keep on focusing on what I truly want and keep on working on myself for making myself better. I will not bother about any destructive and useless thought which will take away my peace of mind.
I usually take inspiration from the people, animals and things around me. I have always been a person with deep observation which have helped me to learn lots of things in the life and helped me to take better decision in my life.
I have shared this part of my life with you guys as I truly wanted to let out all my thoughts. You can also share with me about your stories, incidents or inner conflicts of thoughts and how you have come over that?
Hope to hear from you guys as well. Stay tune and stay happy.
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